It’s been almost half a month since I last wrote. I needed a bit of reflection time away from witchcraft. I had reached burnout stage earlier in the month, as witnessed by my “I’m gonna walk away from all this” post on March 8th then, deciding against it a couple of days later. Apparently the mental stress affected my physical health, as I had a flare of a recurring immune system problem, followed by an upper respiratory cold, which is just now subsiding.
In the middle of all that, I did plan on walking away from it for an extended period of time. In fact, I went through all my magickal supplies, and purged a lot of garden grown dried herbs. Many were old, and probably didn’t hold much magical power anymore. I had dozens of empty glass jars, and they all got recycled.
In the above photo on the left, you can get a sense of what it was like prior to the purge, and the photo on the right was taken today.
Interestingly, I felt a lot better after decluttering my supplies. I knew it needed to be done, but I hate to toss magickal stuff, even if it is time to do so. I began reflecting on the decision to leave Wicca behind, and I realized that I was leaving a path that had defined rituals, which helped keep me focused on witchcraft spirituality. The move to cottage witchery without Wicca had left me a bit lost, and it was so easy to blow off anything to do with witchcraft for days upon end. I hadn’t done that since I started in 2004!
I also decided to go back to the basics and start casting circles. I hadn’t done that for quite some time, but it really is the preferred way to do workings in Wicca. First, I had to reassemble my altar, which had become a table for candles. I decided to go with a simple, decluttered altar. Today I started consecrating tools, dressing & consecrating new God and Goddess candles, and burning home-made incense for the first time in ages and ages. Below is a photo of today’s working in progress.
I’ve got some work ahead of me. I need to assemble a standard ritual for myself, deciding on what circle casting and quarters calling I want to do. I have always used the Egyptian pantheon, specifically Isis and Osiris in my rituals. I’ve long been interested in a shift to the Celtic pantheon. I’m also ready to move away from black candles for awhile, but white and black pillars are all I have right now. One step at a time.
So it seems I’ve come full circle. The structure of Wicca is important to me at this time in my spiritual life. I was floundering a bit, and this seems to be the best solution.
I promise that this will be the last of my dark night of the soul posts. I hope to lighten the mood considerably. If I do attempt to move to a Celtic pantheon, that in itself should be good for some laughs….
Thanks for reading, and Blessed Be!